Lucky thirteen came around and it felt just that. Someone sent me flowers at work and my heart basically exploded. I folded in half with joy, surprise, and gratitude. Coincidentally, these are three emotions that I’ve been feeling a lot recently. I’ve been so much happier as of late and I can feel it radiate out of me. People feel it. That makes the happy grow even more. Surprise, even that is a common occurrence. I’m at day thirteen, the end of sobergate 2k16 is in sight, and I don’t really have any urge to have it end. I don’t miss drinking and that’s a shocking feeling that I didn’t know I was capable of. And gratitude, so much gratitude. To all of you who know me personally, who have seen me through the delightful and the drunken. To all of you reading this whether you know me or not. And to myself. My body, my mind, my heart that’s kept me going even when I didn’t make it easy. I want to feel like this forever.
I went out to dinner with my best friend and we talked about all of these things. We sat peacefully on the patio while we talked about the ebbs and flows of life, how they are beautiful because they show us we are alive. That there is movement. That we are constantly active, growing, navigating. We don’t drink at dinner, nor do we drink at the next bar we go to. We walk home down Sunset and laugh the entire way. My smile is big and my heart is full and again I am grateful. This life is full of such simple beauty, and it requires nothing.
There isn’t an epiphany here. I just want to encourage you all to find the surprise in life. The joy in all things. And the gratitude, oh, the gratitude. There is so much out there for us.
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